Atalist's Dungeon

you rip me apart, tear me limb from limb you play with my heart. left in my vacant chest, dormant and void. you push it, jab it and it beats reluctantly. you rip it from its nestled space. tearing it to pieces. Its not difficult, its been torn apart before. you pull out my stomach, opening it to find dead butterflies. They, long dead, haven't fluttered in a long time. you tear away my lungs. Breathing will never be easy again. You hollow me. I am the nothingness you said I am, and yet, I still am something. you play with whats left. You rip off my ears, no longer will they hear the words you used to say : I Love you. You continue to play with my dormant figure and finally you realize, you killed me. You destroyed me and in the process destroyed yourself. All that remains is a hollowed out you.

I hang onto the thought of forever. It gets me through the day. I dream of the day it will be official and the life after. I hope and believe it will be no different. Except waking up in our universe, our collateral space. I seek the moments after the celebration. the moments of explicit collaboration. Where sole focus and purpose are directed at our swirling chaos. I breathe and seek the moments where you make me lose track of time. Where our melody slows with the quickened pace around us. I long to lose myself here and live in the in-between with you.

The sun sets down, the birds silence their song. It is the nightingales that now will coo the world with their sweet lullabies. Painted across the sky are all the colors of the worldly palette. hues that give vibrancy to the night coming. An explosion of magenta, violet and sienna wrap the sky. As if Da Vinci painted it himself. The world settles in, ready for slumber. Where the nocturnal ones lurk for their prey, and the crickets and frogs sing. Symphonies Capella. Where simple people drift off to sleep, while the adventuresome dream of the color and life in those final moments before dusk.

I am terrified, I think I love you more than you love me. To feel like this is wonderous and terrifying. I am so into you its exhausting. your pulse, your connection, your spark... unlike anything I have ever felt. unreal and altruistic pursuits. You make me want to climb new heights and jump from them to see if I can fly. You are a very dangerous and exhilarating. I never understood how much you got me. now I know. I am stunned. I sit here and giggle for no reason but to feel my smile. Your face echos my sentiment. be still my racing heart. You have vexed me.

sing me a song, make me move. Let me feel the rhythm. Shift and set the pace. let my hips direct your symphony. your fingers slip into my hair. Oh bliss. Teach me something new if you can. Allow me to sway with the melody. be deliberate and whisper to me. I push you pull. We work as a team ... Sound explodes out of us. We are chorus. forceful with our sound. We reverberate through... Until it is once again silent. peace.

I stare at my hands. These hands that toil day in and out. These tiny little hands that hold a heart so precious, that if I were to drop it, it would end me. I think about all the things I have done with them. Taken and given care, loved and worked. I think about the things I am going to do. To wear a ring, to hold my child to walk hand in hand with my lover. All the things I am ready to do. I stare at my hands and all I want to do is hold yours. My tiny little hands match yours. They fit together. Two sets of tiny little hands to walk the long road of life.

I don't check up on you. You may think I do but I don't. I haven't the time. You said your peace and I said mine. What more could I possibly want to know? We did damage to each other. But not the damage we thought. You showed me that what I felt wasn't really there. It was different. you proved to me that people sometimes don't change, and that is okay. We were not till the bitter end. We were just for the end of that chapter in our lives.

Its late or early depending on your perspective. I sit here and wait for you. It feels like it has been forever since I have been near you. To listen to your heart thrum and hear our melodic hearts beating in tune. I ache and feel the bitter cold creep in. Cannot get warm and cannot feel you here. My dreams carry me only so far into fantasy then I awake in anger. Angry at the very tempting and taunting thoughts of your presence. upset that they are just fiction. Oh dreams, for once come true and bring me peace from my illusions. help me to know that very soon they will be reality. Bring my loving angel back to me.

A little piece here a little piece there, There are moments where i give more of myself to you. A little touch here a little touch there. There are moments where I am confounded by our chemistry. A little kiss here and a little kiss there. There are moments where I am awe struck by you. A little love here a little love there. I have forgotten past loves, there is only you.