Atalist's Dungeon

I love you when you aren't looking. The moments you do not see. a smile here, perfect stillness there. Moments captured when you are unaware. I hold them close to my heart. It's you, completely on your own. the beautiful moment when you look at me. When we smile and are just together. When we drive places, the conversations you are focused on, The look of intent on your face. The times I am being mischievous and you are trying to keep me contained. That sinister smile that you get that says oh you don't want to know what I am thinking, drives me wild. Hunny it is you. The un-diluted, raw you. It took me awhile to see, but now that I do I am absolutely smitten. I am in love with the moments in between.

It is late. I should be resting and yet, I think about wandering. To go outside and see the moon in her glory. To take a walk amongst the nocturnal children. What joy it would bring me to feel the dirt and stone beneath my bare feet. To feel the leaves and tree branches around me.... To spin and have no one watching me Just to be free from the scrutiny of human eyes. To dwell amongst the free spirited wilderness and know that I am alone. breathe a slow deep breath in and feel the coolness of it. let my lungs expand once more and take in the succulent smell of green grass and dew. This is where I wish to think. To gain perfect clarity and in the process, center myself. regain what was lost. My balance.

I rejoice, for persephone has returned. My universe is righted again with sweet scents wafting through my window. The cool night calls to me. i smell the lush dewy grass. The night is alive with rebirth. It is my season. The water calls to me. The fish, the wake, the current. It all beckons me to the lakes, streams and rivers. I quake with the thought of losing myself in weightlessness. This is my time. Where I can run outside under a pale moonlight sky and see the stars. I dream such vivid dreams now. I feel reborn with persephone herself. I come alive again.

My best friend, I never thought I could have a love like this. Never dreamed it existed. I dreamed of my knight in shining armor. Faceless in his beauty, He pales in comparison to you. I look at the pictures of us together and I cry. Why couldn't I have seen this before. You made me light up, you still do. I breathe and I feel you here. you are miles away and yet I feel you. You never leave me. My thoughts are constant and true of my feelings for you. Its this beautiful place. A majestic field with sun lighting up a perfect silhouette of tall grass and flowers, trees waving in the breeze and the butterflies and birds gracing the skies. you are my happiest moments and in my happiest spaces. You make me believe that anything is possible. We can live in the dream and be the dream. I look up and see the rain, and I smile. nothing but dark clouds and yet i see such beauty in the silver lining. you show me nothing but love and positivity. There are moments where I am terrified and yet y...

I hold you in my heart, a tiny space and place in mind... You shift your weight and grow. My heart grows with you. My tiny seed, my little need. you stir in me that longing to touch you. To know that you love me too.