Atalist's Dungeon

you make my world freeze. Its not just a fairy tale. It is a reality I never thought i would have. To have someone so caring and loving. I want nothing more than to make you happy. I feel like a stupid girl thinking that I couldn't have this. This is nothing like the movies, This is how it should be. You still my heart and calm me. You make me smile when I feel that feat is impossible. When I am in my darkest place, there you are with a flash light calling me a weirdo for standing in the dark. You are the one who holds my hand through the scary parts, and are there to wipe away my tears when I am sad. You hold me and tell me that it will be ok. I love to hear you speak. your words always surprise me. You teach me more about love that I didn't know about. I am good at ruining surprises and yet you surprise me all the time. you make me smile all the time. Even when we are just sitting on the couch watching a movie, you make me fall in love with you over and over again. You challe...

I dream of you, to look into your beautiful eyes and know you are mine. Lovely and dreamy. Watch you as you gaze at me in awe. those eyes and that smile. I am smitten. I dream and you are warm. I wake up and you are not here. Rude awakening. I breathe and realize that you will come eventually. Today is not the day... but some day we will expect you. You will enter our lives and nothing will ever be the same.

Its late and i should be sleeping. but your thought alone wakes me from my dreams. I cannot sleep because you haunt me. With every fiber of my being I wish you were here. I awake to an empty bed and a my head full of thoughts. I choke back tears and I think of you. Missing you is difficult. I endure because I am strong but there are moments were I am allowed a little frailty. I tell myself this is what you want. you are searching and dreaming and I would ask for nothing more than to see you happy. Yet, here I sit alone on my cold bed. Wondering if you are awake too with thoughts of me? I wonder if we are really that perfect symmetry. Wondering if we are a match that everyone else saw coming. I hope for your sake i am not haunting you as your are me. I hope that you sleep peaceful my dear and that you enjoy this adventure. Nothing gives me more joy then to know that you are happy. I lay back down and rest my head on my pillow. Draped over my pillow is your shirt, it smells of you and he...

My mind has been vacant... for sometime I have let myself run on autopilot. Jump, smile... laugh. All things I can do without thought. But today of all days I am thinking. I am feeling everything. Every emotion in my head and heart. Karma has a funny way of opening ones eyes. I see today what a year can do. More importantly I can see what direction I have taken. i will never go back to being that person i was. I am who i am. A creation of my own right. With that I carry all the weight of my world. Soon I join it with another. until that time... I will shift in to drive and take my life in a new direction Get ready because this will be big.