a soul

It's a funny thing to have someone adore you, 
to truly own up to it and be present in the feelings swirling around.
But to have someone see you for who you really are and not shy away from it, 
extraordinary. 

 Normally in a life time you can rely on family to keep you, 
to be your rock and everything... 
then someone comes along and shakes the establishment. 
Makes you think differently about yourself... makes you want to learn and grow. 

 It is fascinating when you have more than one person do that. 
I sit and stare into cerulean oceans and I see a soul. 
a soul of unyielding complexities and conundrums
they take me deeper into it's depths until there is only a true entity of light in front of me

 I feel the ease and the warmth as I allow it to envelope me. 
There is a comfort and a peace that surrounds me... 
only in the places that we know can we truly be set free
and I am free. 

A soaring blue bird into the vast abyss I fly out into the wide open 
I am unafraid and brave the world for what I see is not a world but an adventure. 
It is amazing that one soul, can make all the difference. 
It is comfortable and natural and not to be taken for granted. 

 I will never take it for granted and I will breathe in the comfort I have. 
it will never escape me, or leave me... it will wait and always be patient with me. 
For that I am eternally grateful to be adored... 
but it is still a bit weird.

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