Second class citizen

 I have been doing a lot of talking about what it has been like to go through grief with losing my mom what feels so quickly, and yet today I am going through another kind of grief. Today it was leaked that the United States Supreme court is intent on overturning Roe v. Wade. For those with no context as to why this case is important I can supply you with the cliffnotes version. Roe v. Wade made access to abortion legal and protected. It was and continues to be a ground-breaking case that set the precedent for many legal proceedings and in turn allowed for Women's rights. It pushed forward the belief of bodily autonomy and allowed for Women to feel safer from government regulation of our bodies. The risk of having to go through an unwanted pregnancy, an illegal and potentially life threatening backalley abortion was something that we moved past as a society, to offer legitimate health care and sexual health for all. 

Fast forward to the Trump administration going on the offensive and appointing a judge they knew full well would work to overturn Roe v. Wade and that takes us to today where a bunch of legal documents made their way out to see the light of day. This pivotal case is going through the process of having the opinions and rulings overturned. I am not sure if everyone understands that gravity of this decision, but this is an assault on women's rights. This is scaling things back to pre 1970 where things were risky for women. Women were not equal in the eyes of the law. Hell women were all but considered property and therefore anything to do with women's health needed to be regulated. It is 2022 and we are reverting. Welcome to the Handmaid's Tale. This seems to be turning this piece of fiction to non fiction, almost like a playbook, which is funny because that book is being banned in several states.  I find it funny that "they" ban books, almost like they are terrified people will figure where they are getting their ideas. 

They discuss this removal of women's health under the guise of religious freedoms and what their "great fucking nation" has been built upon, but lets be clear. They built this nation on genocide, they founded this country of their with blood and horrors. If they were so staunch on religious freedoms, they would act like Jesus and show love and mercy. Jesus would not ask of his people to suffer the indignities of being raped and then having to carry a child to term from that traumatic event. Furthermore, he would show compassion and love towards the broken individual as that is what Jesus would do.  If they really wanted to shape their country based on those beliefs, they would believe the women when they say they have been raped or assaulted, they would show compassion, love and mercy... and not do such a piss poor job of trying rape and assault cases. My former roomie Devon did a project on sexual assault cases and what happens to the rape kits, and it was fucking appalling... and that is in Canada. I have lost too many friends all over the world from men taking what they want from these women because of "what they were wearing", or because "they were asking for it" which are direct quotes from Judges in rape cases. They exonherate the Brock Turners of the world and dismiss the mental and sexual health of the women that suffer the trauma and here we go, preparing for more. 

This is not about accessing abortion either. Those who are wealthy enough to pay for it will still be able to access this, what they have done is cut off the population that cannot afford more children. It is a tactic to keep those who are poor and disenfranchised meak and under their boot. A populace that is under duress and uneducated is easier to control than one that is educated and financially stable. 

This is 100% a war on women. If you don't think so then you are not paying attention. If you don't like the notion of abortions, don't fucking have one. If your views are that abortion should be illegal, thank you for imposing your beliefs on me, because I am a person who has had 2 abortions. I have 3 children (2 biological and 1 bonus), but if I had followed each pregnancy through I would have had 2 and died before giving birth to my sons because the ectopic pregnancy I had was only caught because I didn't want to keep it. It would have been too late to save my ovaries and fallopian tube. My life would be drastically different. I had another abortion because I was pushed into it by my partner at the time. He didn't want to have children with me and that situation was fucked. I wouldn't have wanted to bring a child into that mess and I made the informed decision to do what was right for everyone. Was it hard? yes. Would I do it again, absolutely. I have the family I have today because of the choices I have made. I do not lament this at all. What I do lament is someone trying to tell me what to do with my body.

Generally a lot of the men in this world still have a belief that they can do whatever they want to a woman. This is why "rohypnol" and date rape drugs are rampant. This is also why "incels" feel entitled to sexual contact with a woman they want. This entitlement is what is wrong with our world. No one is entitled to shit. We live in a world indoctrinated to believe that women are to be owned or claimed. I am tired of it. I am sad that my daughter is having to suffer this world and I hope that what is happening in the States finds the right way around the bend. Until then, i will continue to stand on my soap box. Screaming to the masses that I matter, that Women matter. 

I will not be silent about this. I will scream and scream until my voice gives way. I will not be a second class citizen. My body, my fucking choice.