Intentions

I sit here and wonder,
What it is that people are after.
What is the drive to try and tear people down.
Lies, tricks and belittlement, all apart of their craft.
but why?
Entertainment, pleasure, making themselves feel more important?
It is never ending.
Bothersome and confusing.
People are predictable yet interesting.
They all state that they are good and firmly believe they are...
yet we are all wicked and cruel.
In my time alone, I have countless examples.
More than enough reasons to not trust anyone...
yet I do.
I think that may be the most perplexing of all.
Our ability to trust and merely believe,
what with all of this unsavory behavior about.
its a miracle and a curse.
Just sets us up for disappointment later.
I have been disappointed countless times.
and yet here I go again.
Masochistic and naive, I go again.
To hope (yes there is my folly)... to hope for change
to hope for the anomaly to exist.
to believe that there may be some good out there.
Idealistic to a fault.

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