Covid 19



I am sitting here at home, my children fast asleep and I wonder about the world and the impending doom that seems to linger. Go in public and see people, risk a deadly respiratory illness that has no cure. Therefore, we hide. We hide in the shadows and in our homes. We make preparations and shut down everything in the wake of this plague and we endure. Well, enduring tests your mettle. The grit to survive and we are species that learns, at least genetically to survive. We are fighting and doing everything we can to survive this. We have learned from our forebears and those who have dealt with this previously to handle this situation. Although, some don't look at the history of our world with any modicum of seriousness or respect. It happened to them because they were ill-equipped we say, they did not have the technology, they did not have our minds and yet, here we are. It is happening again in another era and there are places and people that are making the same mistakes. I like to think those are the people that would hide a zombie bite in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. I am not sure if it is hubris, pure arrogance that these people go out, travel and shirk those with the knowledge and the technological advances to give us hard cold facts, to just carry on with the ignorant belief of invincibility.

We are not invincible. We are flesh and bone, we expire. I feel this keenly right now and it shocks me with the sense of urgency of what I am doing and yet, I am exhausted. I am exhausted due to my need for people, need for contact. I struggle with being away from my friends and family and knowing that full well it is in their best interest and mine to keep the distance. I struggle with the time that gives way to horrible thoughts of loved ones dealing with this illness, alone. I do not understand this world yet, but the picture is becoming clearer. I need people but I need them to be alive more than I need them in my space.

I look to social media for strength as it is one of the few ways to be social at this time and I see that it is the same it always has been, a rainbow-coloured dumpster fire of hope, ridiculousness, connectivity and of course at its base trash (I am looking at you tiger king)

I am not sure the purpose of this rambling if it is more so to get it out or to vent my frustrations but if you are reading this... know that I want you to be safe, know that I care and know that through all of our measures, We will endure.


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