My husband

 Looking at the love my parents have and the relationship they have I feel so blessed by my husband. Douglas, you are everything I needed, everything I wanted, and the love I deserved. I remember a while back you told me after watching a couple of movies that we accept the love we deserve and I felt for the longest time I was under-valuing myself. I didn't see myself for who I was and the things I had to offer. It took me by surprise on the weekend when my cousin was boasting about who I was that I was shocked and embarrassed but all the things she said were true. I have never connected the dots to who I was and yet, you, my amazing Douglas did. You try to remind me who I am and how wonderful that is. You talked to my dad today about how I was your favourite person ever and that in itself is high praise because of the company you keep. You are incredible and I feel incredibly lucky to have found someone who takes things in stride... the things I worry about. You work tirelessly to do the things that are needed and do not question the time that I need. Especially now in dealing with an ailing parent. There are no questions. It is just tackling it by handling one problem at a time... and when I can't, you hold me and just let me be in the moment. 

You are my rock, my person, my friend, my partner in crime, and the person I want to tell ridiculous shit to. you are my first person to talk to, my last person to smile at, and the person that drives me. I am so incredibly attracted to you... that smile, that laugh, that backside... I could go on. But it is your drive that gets me. Your will to make our universe better. You don't take my shit when I am being irrational but give me an outlet to get it out. You teach me and I teach you. 

I love you douglas. Happy anniversary. 

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