Closer to the truth

I don't blame you.
How could I?
There is just so much I wanted to share,
Maybe I still can,
not necessarily in the same position,
but at the very least friend will do.
I am not going to say that I don't hurt,
because I do,
but what I will say is that there is a hole.
A perfect, tiny little hole that you made.
a place for you.
a place now vacant,
Its not that you have been removed,
its just that this is not where you will remain.
I am strong enough that I can repair and rebuild.
It just sucks that you are not here in the capacity I wanted you.
Depression or not, I am strong.
I had to claw my way back last time,
to tell you the truth this seems a hell of a lot easier than that.
No clawing, just climbing.
If anything I believe that shows growth.
I have grown,
A year later, in the same situation, and I am stronger than i thought.
It sucks to compare to that... but really what else can I do
You made your choices and I have made mine.
We will see what happens when you realize what is gone.
When the chase will begin,
and how far I may make you run...
Yeah, we will see what will happen if it comes to that.